Me as a Young Mother.

"I am not a perfect mother but I'm trying my best"


This was my pictured takin when I was 9 months pregnant. When I saw it again, having a baby inside, looking odd with hunchback tummy. I can't believe I made this far. I've gone through the worst possibilities right from pregnancy to labor. All those evening sickness which I vomit alot, constant hunger at dawn and the abnormalities I cant stand being in that situation again... And the labor it was unforgettable. An awesome pain will kill you. I scream and cried like fuck at the hospital but the feeling when you saw your baby after it was such a great feeling you cant understand. Magical I guess.

Taking care a baby was never been easy. Its the hardest I think... I can't even imagine all those sleepless nights, got huge debts for the milk and diaper, and when josh got sick, we dont have enough money. :( Sad but its true. We we're not at the right time having one cuz we aren't ready for the huge responsibilities.

As time goes by, thanks for my dearest mother who has a huge part of taking care of my baby, I survived. He is now a healthy baby and very active as well. Eventhough I have a complicated relationships with his father still I manage to do my responsibilities.

Being a young mother made me feel uncomfortable and less accepted by society. I don't know why? is it because I look young and I do have a baby? whats the difference? is it the experienced of giving birth that a baby comes out to your vigina and it really makes a difference? Shit to those people who see us like that. I really hate it and most other guys thinks us like that. They dont know the feeling of being treated like that. They dont even realize. Oh well, thats what we call ignorance and self-ego. I dont even care anyway. I live my own life and they cant take that away anymore. Its up to them which ever they may think. I dont give a damn. >.<

I am a mother and sometimes I dont feel the best but I'm trying. I'll do my best to give my son whats good for him and support his dream. I hope papa god will help me conquer that. Life is so hard especially now that I'm a mom. but I won't give up!










Thus, I thank those people greeted me happy mother's day. It really reminds me that I'm a mother..ahaha and my father was bumming me today that I should find a work cuz Im such a lazy ass... I should work cuz I have a son...and hell yes he's right. OMG!
ahahaha

xoxo,
Anna