scream me a love song

as you all know... I don't have the talents to play guitar.. yeyeh! such a pity but as for you to know I'm a big fan of hardcore to alternative rock ballads. My all-time fave band obviously, PARAMORE. haha and today, I seem to find songs that would melt my heart out and try to memorize them... Someday I'll post them here and to really try harder to memorize all their freaking lyrics... :) well I'm just inspired by doing it and you know maybe i'll post vids which I'm going to show you my hidden singing talent ahahahaha.... ok! enough. mua!

Listen to RhodaMorgenstern

Click below to listen their new compostion. My close friend Rhoda is the vocalist of the band RHODAMORGENSTERN and I suggest for you to listen to them and follow them with their soon gigs. I also love their band so much because of their uniqueness and great music.


746&30 by RhodaMorgenstern
Worthy by RhodaMorgenstern

and she said..

"No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes. It’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends- they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything- they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them- actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about."

Marilyn Monroe / repost via hayley williams tumblr

VMA featuring hayley! psyched!

Watch Paramore’s performance of ‘The Only Exception’ from Sunday night’s Video Music Awards below. It starts at 2:40 just after Hayley joins B.o.B for ‘Airplanes.’ Enjoy!

2010 MTV Video Music Awards - More VMA Video

Hayley was perfect! stoked!

ARTWORK love.

One of the superr best stores I love the most is ARTWORK shoppe.
I'm a super avid fan of this store because of its eccentric designs of their clothes, shoes and other accessories. Well Ofcourse, I want to show you some of my pictures I fitted in and love the designs so much. ENJOY!


The reversible forest design snow cap..





ugly girl face t.shirt




The French Fries head

Love yourself first.

Well first of all to summarize who I am.... maybe the best way to describe it is I'm just a girl who does alot of out of this world things, love to be unique, wants to be loved, Don't have care in the world, wants to express all my thoughts, wants to be happy, cherish every second and minute of her life, let mistakes comes her way and gradually learned from it and eventually find ways to be better and just to be happy with her life together with those people who accepts her and love her unconditionally.

When all else fails you are the one who will believe and love yourself at the end of the day. Don't let other people let you down and screw you to death because in that way they will destroy you and you felt hopeless and useless. I know you can't deny it but for me, I don't let them see me that way anymore because I deserve to loved and that love will start from me.

xoAnna

All I wanted was you.

Does love conquers all? then let it be... :)

I really love this song... try to listen and fall in love

why do hatred let us overcome or eat us alive?

when all those past nightmares becomes surreal, then its better to face them without hatred.


Does hatred make this problem resolve. Does this situation makes you okay when you feel that hatred in your heart and can you sleep at night or can you stop thinking about that someone you hate the most??



Why do people let this feeling overcome them or eat them alive just to see that someone they hate the most what they feel and continue hurting them. Does this shit makes them so happy??

Well, as for me to realize in my 21 years of existence hatred was the most painful feeling or thought that keeps coming back here in my heart and its not that I also feel it or I am actually the only one victim of it but mostly the people I love are the ones who shows me that hatred they like the most.

I wonder why it exist and how people don't realize that having so much hate makes everything so wrong and likely make us worse at the same time. All I wanted in life was to be understood and to be loved but why they hate me so much because I choose mistakes and wrong paths and they thought I don't deserve a chance to be prove myself to be better, to make us better?

Does chances hard to give? and does hatred are better to felt?

If there is one thing I want to scream at them. I want to tell them I'm sorry for being who I am who they hate the most. For making their miserable life so much complicated because I exist. If I fail them every time and having that traumatic experiences on their thoughts they felt I'm a god damn burden they wish I died the day I was born. And when things gets worse they think I would came back for them and continue hassling their peaceful existence.

But when sorry is hard to accept.. that's when hatred and abandonment rule in our lives.

I'm totally tired in this hatred cycle I kept facing on and on... its like it never ends... like I'm in roller coaster ride and I kept vomiting because I can't take it anymore.

So when they like that hatred the most well this time I won't show it back to them. I want them to felt that I am not affected anymore because hatred won't exist here in my heart. Hatred are like monsters who slowly eat your soul alive and when that time comes those people who you love the most will also feel the same way. And this time I don't want that to happen starting today.

My soul felt crashed and burned because of that hatred feeling they see in me and suddenly I seem to realize that feeling the same way will make this fucking situation more unhealthy as it is.

Today I promise to stand up for love and erase hatred here in my heart and in my so complicated life. I know when i start to deny hatred, I know people will come to realize this also and I know someday things will get better. I prefer to give chances than hate because thats who I am and what I believe in. That's one things for sure now... I'll try harder even if its not, doing it will change alot. God knows that.

xoAnna

PS:
Please deny hate continue LOVE?

so bright and white

I bought this tank top earlier... in a cheapest price.
wee... just for you to know that I'm trying to make myself better in the best way that I can. I hope things well be brighter and colorful like this shirt shows.

xoAnna

P.S going to post some artwork shop faves next time. :]

I think im going to explode!

and I wanna believe when you tell me that it'll be ok but not today...
tomorrow it may change..........


and here in I am,
in a state of nowhere and seems like I'm all messed up..
I've created a complicated situation yet I know its all my fault and I know I deserve all this consequences I am facing right now.

you know when you choose your heart and follow it, the consequences will be your family because they hate the guy you eventually love and choose for. Well I think that is my situation now. The worse part is you don't want to choose because you also love them and you don't want to lose them... My heart is aching and I can't puzzle the words I want to scream here in my heart. All I wanted was to make things okay between the both of parties because I want us to be in good terms now... but its not.

So the only solution I think is to be on my own now and stand up for all of my decisions in life.. maybe being dependent with my parents is the one thing I am also attached so much to them.. I love them but I also have responsibilities of my own and maybe to start things up is to prove them I can be on my own...

so maybe I'll just make things cool off for now and not push through hurts and the heavies because I choose this and they make me choose... it hurts alot and I felt exhausted in this same dilemma I keep myself with.. maybe this is the time I should let things done and be on my own now...




but I really hate this day!!!!! shit
I felt like dying but I hope I can do this..
I'm still hoping for the best of it all..
please pray for me if your reading this?

xoAnna

blessthefall - What's Left of Me music video

and this boys gives me goosebumps... psyched!

Fashion Bloggers

cool kids they are. aren't they? are you one of us?

Naked Avril Lavigne - Lyrics

this is the way I feel today. HAPPY :)

BLESS THE FALL i fucking miss them

my all time favorite band..
this guys are genius in my opinion! :)

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

AHAHAHAHA! this video really relates me!

Pictures that inspires me recently.

I like it messy but crazy beautiful and this pictures really rocks the feeling out of me. I'm kind of wanting to be pretty but in a cool and confident way. I guess being so overdressed look is really not my thing. I want those super ripped shorts and denim vest. With Those skinny jeans or colored or black leggings with old school chucks really makes that feeling... I also want those eccentric type of rings and fake bracelets. Well, I also like those cute Tattoos but I'm not wanting one, I just love looking at it. ahaha

But the whole scene are the best one.. so hope you like it! enjoy.