Random life.

Right now I am not happy for who I am. I mean there's a feeling of self-doubt and insecurity. Its permeating myself wholly and I can't stand it anymore its the same feeling. I don't know what decisions I should chose to do because there are these people who needed me.

On the other hand, I feel betrayed inside not by reality but emotionally. Somehow I felt that way because there are those people who does what they really want in their life and is determined on what they really wanted. I wonder why is it so hard for me as a human being when I know we are all the same which is capable of doing something and achieving something. Why is it I am not capable of pushing myself to that am I scared or discouragement preoccupied first??

I have this situation which some other people only look up for those who made their life better ways not those who failed and still continue failing, afraid and not believing what they could do for the better. Those people always have to reprimand and out trust to move forward. I feel like I am that type of someone right now. Self-doubt is killing me. I am afraid, discourage and hopeless its always the same feeling especially when theres no one helping.

As they say, your the only one who could help yourself. To be able to learn and stand up for what you really wanted. Explore every emotion and try to fix them. Don't drown from all the Roller coaster feeling that the world hand you. There are those people that you couldn't help but hurt you or worst destroy your soul.

So don't let them destroy you and stand up for what you could do as a person.
But for me right now, the way to overcome this is to not avoid myself to let go from this kind of feeling or I would be miserable my whole life.

There is this blog i saw yesterday which he does art with quirky quotes to it which he called them Stuff no one told me and I kind of like the way he said some because thats reality.
Heres some of it:




So this kind of stuff really open by eyes for a bit. It kind of tells you that some people also realize what your feeling and you need to get over.


Oh well, I just need to stay focus from now own and try to puzzle things that would make me happy and do what I really want. Find some remedy of this self-doubt of mine and stay away from insecurities.

I'm currently listening to the devil wears prada.
Still Fly.


I want to be INSPIRED thats the best word I could cope up and I want it BADLY!
Have to post some of the random things to about me later.

xoAnna