I'm in state of confusion yet again not because I miss that guy but because I have to make a choice. On my own, on whats best for us or what may lead me to good things which I acquire for myself in the future. Is it good to just stay away from the people I love or the people who eventually annoyed me at daily basis. I'm so paranoid and frustrated here and all I do is sleeping and getting all exhausted at the end of the day. I need constant change in my life now but I'm not sure if my decision to leave and work for something I not familiar with is the rightest decisions.
Still, I know I'm all jaded here and alone. I want to learn to be my own because I know I am now.. Even though, to think I have a baby or a child to give a full responsibility with, I don't want to be selfish to take him all alone with me because I know I can't and never will be.
I know someday he'll understand and all I can do is to continue to support and love him here in my heart. I won't be a good mother yet I can still support him in every way but for now I have to think for myself now not for everyone but for me.
So the answer now, will I take the opportunity or not?
I hope god will answer me but I guess his not.
so now maybe I should give it a try for a change.
xo Anna
I am Anna Adam
I do not believe in therapy. I am a strong believer of love, karma and fate. Everything in life happens for a reason. People are always going to try and bring you down, but you can't let that get in your way. Everything I do has to be visually appealing to me. I am always tired. I can watch the movie Coraline and other personal dvd collections on repeat for days. I can't whistle. No one can compare to my son, He is the world to me. My mom is one of the strongest people I know, and always know the right thing to say. I want someone with soul, passion. Who is making a difference in the world. Strives on love, not hate. Who doesn't use religion as an excuse for foul behavior. Who has similar taste in music, movies and art. Appreciates life and everything it has given us. Understands the meaning of the word love.
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